So, it’s been a long time! A very, very long time!!! First I want to apologize to all those that I have disappointed and wronged with my disappearance. I would like to complete any unfinished business so please contact me if something is still outstanding.

My life pretty much stood still after my grandfather passed and just about a month later my beloved grandmother followed him. She had some medical problems but she pretty much gave up after he passed and died of a broken heart.

After they were gone I didn’t even want to look at my sculpting or anything I was working on. It hurt so much to think about my grandparents that I avoided any thought of them and the fairies just hit too close to home. I couldn’t separate Emily’s story from my grandparents so I buried Emily’s story along with them. I squashed all my creativity and any thoughts of the fairies. Pretty soon weeks and then months would go by without me thinking of them. It’s been almost two years.

I have yet to touch the clay.

Something is happening though…. I think my heart is finally beginning to thaw. With springs arrival I can feel nostalgic whispers and the magic of the fairies stirring once again.

The dinning room table overlooks our small flower garden and while we eat I find myself telling stories to my three little boys about the fairies that live in the garden. During sunny days we hunt for fairy eggs (chocolate malted robin eggs) amongst the flowers. The boys ask me about the fairies; what they eat, where they live and so on.

Last night my son had a hard time falling asleep and was crying. As I was soothing him he turned to me and asked me what fairies brought good dreams. I told him the Dream Darlings did. He smiled, turned over and promptly fell asleep. Something broke inside me and I think I might be ready to create again.

But what if I can’t….has it been too long?

I am afraid to touch the clay.

My Grandfather passed away a few days ago and his memorial and burial was yesterday. He was one of my number one fans and watched all my fairies sell on ebay. He and my grandmother encouraged me to sculpt from the very beginning…

I feel numb and sad and keep crying when I think about him. He was one of those people who are ALWAYS there for you and never had a negative thing to say. He was super supportive, was a wonderful listener and made you feel as if you were the most important person in the room.

He lived a full happy life and was 82 when he passed. He loved his garden and grew raspberries, grapes and all kinds of roses and flowers. He used to save roses for me so that I could use them on my fairies. He was found by my Grandmother in his garden laying on the grass with his hands folded under his chin. His hat had tilted to one side and his cat, shadow was curled up next to him. He looked as if he had just become tired and laid down to take a short nap.

I can’t think of a better way for him to go. But at the same time I just wish I could have said goodbye…..I will miss him so much!! (sob)

I have no desire at all to create or sculpt. It is just gone. The last fairy that I sculpted (midnight dance) was my Grandfathers most favorite of all the fairies I had created. He was so proud of it.

I have another fairy that I completed a few days before he died (he never saw it) but I just don’t feel like putting it on ebay. I don’t feel like doing all the work that it takes to put it on. I don’t know what is wrong with me….I think my grandfather would be disappointed if I didn’t. I think he would have loved this one too. She is all in white and gold ~ like an angel. I am so sad right now……

I found out I am going to have a baby boy!! Another boy!! Oh my!! This makes three boys for me. =) Today I went to the store and purchased several yards of fabric to make into baby blankets. I use the soft flannel blankets for everything from swaddling blankets to burp clothes to towels. They are wonderful and I can never have too many! =) I have no idea what we are going to name the baby! We have Rowan who is our oldest and Titus who is our second. So far we have been thinking of the name Weston, or at least I have been thinking of the name. My Husband doesn’t really care for it that much. Hmmm…….. Weston Drake does sound nice though.

What a crazy journey the past three months have been. Starting on Jan 1st I started to search for a new house to live in. Before, we were living in my parents basement. They have a huge house and converted part of the lower level into a wonderful flat for us. It was so nice to run upstairs and talk to my mom whenever I felt like it, or have my little sisters come downstairs to visit almost every day. I really miss them! After searching and searching and searching we, My mother-in-law, Husband, two little sons and I finally found the perfect house. We are just renting and hope to be able to purchase a home in the next five years or so. The house is pale yellow and is located on a dead end street next to a small community park. The backyard is small but perfect with a huge sycamore tree. There are lots of small plants and ferns. I can hardly wait to get my hands into the dirt and start gardening. I have never lived in a place where I could garden before. I feel so happy here and I love living with Nana! I think without her I would feel lonely. She is also a most kindred spirit and is a child at heart with a vivid imagination. She has lots of ideas about the world of Emily and hopes to perhaps right a book someday. My husband and I wanted our Children to be about 2 to 2 1/2 years apart in age so that they could play well together. In January we had another “Surprise” and baby number three is on the way. It was perhaps one of the most trying times being sick and having to pack and move while I was in the depths of tiredness and extreme sickness. I am so happy that my sickness is over and I am almost back to my normal self. The due date is sometime in October which is a nice month to have a baby I think. =) I am so hoping it is a girl! I am sicker then I was with the boys and I can’t stop eating! My Husband set up the Internet for me yesterday and I actually sculpted for the first time in months!! I was so excited. I worked on Lisa’s mermaid and the tail turned out nicely. Today I hope to work more on Marie’s Wind Sylph. It is snowing here! Weird for April!

So, we need to move again. With our two little boys and us we have outgrown the flat we are living in and have decided to rent a house instead. I have been searching and searching for houses the last month and a half and have not really found anything. It is so hard to find the right place! My mother-in-law will be moving in with us so we need a place that hopefully will meet all her needs as well. I am super excited about her moving in and can’t wait for the company! I have found an old farm house in the country sitting on about sixty acres of farm land that is available for rent. It is a pretty big old house built in 1906. I absolutely love old houses! They have so much character and charm that just don’t exist in the newer homes. It looks old and lonely from the outside and I have yet to see the inside. I am hoping against hope that it is charming and homey inside. The house is located next to a very highly recommended country elementary school that the boys could go to when they get old enough. I am so tired of moving! I hope this house is the one! I’m keeping my fingers crossed!!!

This has been quite a scary week for me! Last Sunday I started experiencing serious heart palpations and on Thursday afternoon went into the ER to see if there was anything wrong. Everything checked out just fine and it looks like I am just under too much stress. I will be taking a break and do not plan to sell fairies on ebay for a couple of months. If I do sell a fairy I’ll make sure to notify you all via the blog and mailing list that it will be going on ebay. As of right now I don’t plan to sculpt any for ebay. I will however still sculpt fairies for my own pleasure and relaxation. I still have a few fairies to ship out ~ which should be sent out in the next few days, and one more completed fairy to place on ebay. She will be placed on ebay tonight.

I guess I just put too much of myself into my fairies and when I try to sell them it causes too much stress on me. I thought I was fine and could handle anything but for now I guess my body is trying to tell me to take a break! If I do sculpt, I’ll place pictures of them on my blog but I don’t plan to offer anything for sell soon (other then the fairy going on ebay tonight).

This has nothing to do with my fairies but everything to do about me!! =) I have anther blog site that I started a couple of months ago. I called it Gymboree Tales and I have pictures of my two sons on it. Basically the site is all about my two little angels. I dress my kids in Gymboree which is a children’s clothing line. The clothes are awesome and stay together really well. They don’t fall apart and you can wash and wash and wash them! It also appeals to my creative side because all the clothes are made in collections and go perfectly together. They are so cute!! They are also super expensive and the only way I can afford them is to buy them used off eBay. I am a stickler for bargains and love to “hunt” for deals. I also resell them when the boys outgrow them and sometimes I make more money off of them then I purchased them for! It is so fun!! I love to take pictures and took some of my sons wearing their Gymboree clothes. I changed the coloring on some of the pictures to create different looks. Anyway… if you have time you can visit www.gymboreetales.emilysfairies.com

Today started with a bang! I woke up to my oldest son, Rowan, crying at his door ~ at his door! This meant he had figured out how to get out of his crib! Oh dear! I was planning on working on my fairies during nap time and was all settled in with my audible story to listen to while I work when I heard, “Mamma, out!” Rowan had gotten out of his crib again! I placed him back in his crib and asked him to show Mamma how he got out. He carefully placed one leg over the top, and then holding on to the top rail with both hands, gingerly lowered himself to the floor. There was no nap time. I called my sister wondering what in the world I was going to do! Luckily she had just stopped using her crib tent a week ago. Her oldest is almost 3 and no longer needed it. I am in luck! Tonight I am off to her house and then back again to install the tent. I hope it works!!! Hopefully I’ll still have some time to work on my creations tonight!