16
Jul

My Grandfather Marion Ellis Marshall passed away…

   Posted by: emilysfairies   in Daily Life

My Grandfather passed away a few days ago and his memorial and burial was yesterday. He was one of my number one fans and watched all my fairies sell on ebay. He and my grandmother encouraged me to sculpt from the very beginning…

I feel numb and sad and keep crying when I think about him. He was one of those people who are ALWAYS there for you and never had a negative thing to say. He was super supportive, was a wonderful listener and made you feel as if you were the most important person in the room.

He lived a full happy life and was 82 when he passed. He loved his garden and grew raspberries, grapes and all kinds of roses and flowers. He used to save roses for me so that I could use them on my fairies. He was found by my Grandmother in his garden laying on the grass with his hands folded under his chin. His hat had tilted to one side and his cat, shadow was curled up next to him. He looked as if he had just become tired and laid down to take a short nap.

I can’t think of a better way for him to go. But at the same time I just wish I could have said goodbye…..I will miss him so much!! (sob)

I have no desire at all to create or sculpt. It is just gone. The last fairy that I sculpted (midnight dance) was my Grandfathers most favorite of all the fairies I had created. He was so proud of it.

I have another fairy that I completed a few days before he died (he never saw it) but I just don’t feel like putting it on ebay. I don’t feel like doing all the work that it takes to put it on. I don’t know what is wrong with me….I think my grandfather would be disappointed if I didn’t. I think he would have loved this one too. She is all in white and gold ~ like an angel. I am so sad right now……

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8 comments so far

Donna Weissman
 1 

Hi Angela,
I visit your site everyday hoping to see an update of your work.
I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your wonderful Grandfather. I know that you are going to miss him so much. Your Grandmother must feel so lost.
You both have so many wonderful memories of him and it will comfort you both to share them with each other. It will hurt at first to speak of them, but in the end they will comfort you.
Remember where your sweet Grandfather is going. He tended to his garden to make it a place of beauty. It gave him peace,purpose and pleasure. God layed that kitty by him to watch over him until your Grandmother found him. Now your Grandfather has a bigger garden to tend.
I know that you feel like all the life has gone out of you. It is only natural that you feel the way you do for now. If it hurts you to think about sculpting right now, then step away from it. You will come back to it when you feel that you are ready. You will be all the better for it when you do, because you will have your desire to create the beautiful fairies back. Your work is so amazing and it is so much a part of you.
So step back, throw yourself into your two little boys. Spend the kind of time with them now that you won’t be able to once your new little one comes.
Just know that I am thinking of you. I cry with you over the loss of your Grandfather. I smile with you over the memories of him. My heart swells with the love that you have for him.
I hope that I have given you as much comfort as the beauty of your fairies have given me.
Take care,
Donna Weissman

July 17th, 2008 at 2:06 pm
Casey
 2 

I am so very sorry for your loss…but he sounds like he was an amazing man….grief is OK..it is a natural part of our lives..especially when we loose someone we love…I am thinking of you tonight and sending you the best of thoughts

July 29th, 2008 at 3:02 pm
Diane (PixxiStix)
 3 

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandfather, and the pain you are feeling. He sounds like a wonderful man, and so loved. And when God calls us home, after our life here on earth, what other gift is more important to leave behind than love. It is important to remember his life and the gifts he gave.

I hope you don’t lose your love of sculpting, because it is a celebration of your life. I think your grandparents must have understood this from the very beginning. I hope you were able to finish your last sculpture; it would make your grandfather proud. And whether you sell her or not is of no consequence.

(((Hugs)))
Diane

September 30th, 2008 at 8:54 am
Deb
 4 

Hi Angela. Sorry about your grandfather. I hope to see your sculpts again one day. A little red haired fairy you had on ebay a few years ago inspired me to try my had at this. Thank you.

Deb H.

September 30th, 2008 at 6:56 pm
 5 

Hello Angela, I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I know exactly what you’re feeling. My mom passed away (at 82) just two years ago. The feeling of loss is incredible. I wondered if I’d ever “be the same”. It was hard to sculpt, but in time it came back to me. I truly believe that my mom had a hand in helping me continue on. I would think that your grandfather would love the same for you. Your talent is incredible, dear. And your grandfather knew that. You can still see him smiling at you (in your mind’s eye) and enjoying your work. Every so often I still feel my mom’s hand on my shoulder as I work. I wish you healing, hun. And I hope to, one day, see that you’re sculpting again. Be well.
My very best,
Debbie

October 1st, 2008 at 6:32 am
 6 

Hello Angela, I just found this blog, and I am so sorry to hear of your Grandfather’s passing. I know this condolence is a little late, but I hope it gives you comfort to know that he died in such a peaceful way. It sounds like the two of you were very close, I am sure he is watching over you and your family with a heart full of love. Please don’t stop sculpting, you have such a gift! I too discovered one of your little girl fairies a few years ago, and it inspired me to sculpt a little girl for my sister. Your Grandfather would have wanted you to keep going.
My deepest condolences,
Jen

March 21st, 2009 at 7:25 pm
Iris
 7 

Hi Angela,
I am sitting here crying over your words. I feel the hurt. I know firsthand how overwhelming tragic news can be. I found your site because my new passion is doll making. It is helping me get over a great deal. I hope your passion comes back, don’t think of how your grandfather would love the doll, think of the doll as a little person who is helping you forget the bad.
I know you are probably very busy with the baby but I hope you can sculpt again soon.

P.S. Please write something on your blog to let us know how you are doing.

Hugs,
Iris

May 27th, 2009 at 9:48 am
Dana
 8 

Hi Angela,
I used to go to your website a very long time ago. I have recently found your blog and was wondering if you are still sculpting and if you have another website. I loved looking at your sculpture tutorials and I was hoping to see them again, it has been a long time and I am trying to improve my skills. Hope you are doing well.

July 7th, 2009 at 10:16 pm

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